About that dragon mask I wear...
Jan. 24th, 2016 06:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kawaburdVanadis? I realized exactly who sie is and what sie means to me.
That dragon, that silly, jovial, headstrong goofball... is everything I want to be.
What do you call it? Positive envy? Ambition? Inspiration? It took actually wearing hir and being hir for awhile to figure it out, but this is what happens when I watch people, get wowed by them, watch them do amazing things... and later learn they're just conducting human potential like anyone else, but doing it with strength and consistency. That fear of imitation or imposter syndrome? Well, it's a little like thinking people are gonna accuse you of stealing an entire style and not being original, which... lets face it, that's NEVER been an issue for me.
It's still exhilarating and terrifying when I wear hir, though. Because, human, mortal, mundane or not, I still feel that power flowing through me like fire, and oh my deuces is it intense! And knowing that... when I do wear hir, I feel compelled to actually take action, build myself and make my dreams happen instead of just drifting.
That dragon, that silly, jovial, headstrong goofball... is everything I want to be.
What do you call it? Positive envy? Ambition? Inspiration? It took actually wearing hir and being hir for awhile to figure it out, but this is what happens when I watch people, get wowed by them, watch them do amazing things... and later learn they're just conducting human potential like anyone else, but doing it with strength and consistency. That fear of imitation or imposter syndrome? Well, it's a little like thinking people are gonna accuse you of stealing an entire style and not being original, which... lets face it, that's NEVER been an issue for me.
It's still exhilarating and terrifying when I wear hir, though. Because, human, mortal, mundane or not, I still feel that power flowing through me like fire, and oh my deuces is it intense! And knowing that... when I do wear hir, I feel compelled to actually take action, build myself and make my dreams happen instead of just drifting.
